August 29. The Cycle Is Completed.

Everything is over now..
To be honest, I thought I would find myself during this trip, but the truth is I think I'm more lost than ever. Who am I? This trip has taught me a lot, and it has changed me a lot as well. But I feel like I left Gene Wong in Japan. My heart and mind is there and won't come back. The reason is because the mixture of cultures just don't match up. Being super kind and nice and happy does not work here. Everyone is too rude. I thought it would work, but I was proved wrong even at the airport. Everyone is just mad rude, fuck that. For example, I was going through customs and I guess I accidently cut someone and the gaurd scolded at me "Hey man, wait your turn!". What the fuck? Okay dude I didnt even know. Japan would have been different "sumimasen, (please wait your turn, thank you) *nod*"

I want to be the person that I left in Japan. A much more kind and sincere me, but can I? I am not going to be pushed over here in America by the cocky attitude we were taught so well..

Well, this is the final post. I want to say my last words..

I love Japan. I definitely want to make it an annual trip. It's beautiful. So beautiful. It's so fun. I feel so safe there. Even the "bitches" of Japan are nice. Everyone is differnet. Everyone is skinny, beautiful, and kind. It's almost like heaven, really. When I came back to America... It was difficult to find even skinny people(i know that sounds mean haha, but it's true)..The scenery is just absolutely stunning. I have so many things I want to say but I'm pretty jumbled.
Ill just leave it at this. Japan is the best thing I've done so far in my life. So many great memories and so many new friends. It's so easy to make friends there. I laugh at myself if I do something stupid, and no one laughs back. Everyone is polite and kind. I'm not afraid to experiment at all. I love this culture, and I have really thought about moving there in the future.

Japan, You changed my life. I love you. And I love all my friends there.

-Gene Wong, The Uroboros Cycle is completed, again.