Leaving to Find Myself

Today, I leave San Diego for awhile.
I have to say, I am scared. I really feel this will help me find myself this time. I didn't get to go where I originally wanted, but at least this place I'll have people that care about me here, it's a safe environment..

I stepped outside today, it's a beautiful day. It's a great day to leave..
My mind is ever so jumbled right now.. I can't think straight. Is what I'm doing right? How will I explain this to my parents?.. Maybe this is necessary to really start a new chapter in my life. I have to accept that things aren't the same anymore..
There is a reason behind why I'm overloading myself with school work. More than just challenging myself, and more than trying to finish my GE's earlier.. I realize that when I come back to San Diego, it will be hard to find someone to confide in. Everyone around me is drifting away.. I need to keep myself occupied. Sadly, books are my new friend...Books and Music.

Since my brand-name spending days are pretty much over, I still have a lot of this money saved up. I figured I'll probably use it for guitar equipment, and travel. Money can't buy happiness but It can take me places. I want to go to places where I'll feel welcomed and safe. It isn't here in San Diego. Although my friends here in San Diego are still close and I know they have good hearts, our friendship isn't exactly on their top priority list, which is totally fine..I don't have much company here.

Anyways, update later when I arrive to San Jose.. I hope all goes smoothly. Wish me luck.


I still wonder about you everyday..Do you wonder about me?...